Bo enjoys chewing on a squeaky frog while Grammie opens her birthday gifts. He also enjoyed playing the paper. We had just taken his onsie off because it was covered in drool. Seriously, the boy is a fountain.Okay, I’m skipping Tuesdays With Dorie — again! I know, I know!! But I will be back the next two weeks with black and white banana bread and blueberry sour cream ice cream so don’t give up hope. I’m still a baker at heart. 
And you see, I’ve still been baking… But I just didn’t have time to bake everything I needed to. We were gone all weekend and yesterday was my mom’s birthday. I cooked a big dinner and baked lava cakes for her birthday. After all of that was cleaned up, I baked two batches of brownies for Operation GALS. Needless to say, I just didn’t make it to the TWD recipe. 
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I am already starting to question my sanity. How exactly am I going to do all I need to do and still breathe when school starts in two short weeks? My day yesterday was packed to the gills (I spent 6 hours working on my online classes and could have spent 6 more…) and today isn’t looking to be much better.
Sure, I could give some things up — I could stop writing the blog but really, the blog only uses about 10 minutes a day and it’s something I enjoy. I could stop baking but there again — I like to bake. (I guess the theme here is I shouldn’t do anything I like, huh??) I could stop making dinner every night but then what would my family eat?
I’m at that point where I know some things are going to have fall by the wayside but I’m just not sure what those things are…
I keep thinking that I should quit at the high school but then I become very scared. I am so afraid that the first or second week of school Mike will receive his promotion and we will be off to who knows where and then I’m going to leave them in an even bigger bind than if I quit now. But then I think about living here without that job and it just doesn’t make since — logically or financially — for me to give it up now. It’s already going to be hard when I leave, I just don’t want to make it harder on those I care about most. I’m not sure what the right decision is…
I’m also much more conflicted about being away from Bo than I ever thought I would be. I know that, for me, it isn’t healthy for me to be with him 24/7 but at the same time when I’m not with him I want to be with him. (Hence the fact I think working from home will work well…) I want to be the one who molds him into the little boy he is going to be. I want to be the one who makes sure that he eats a healthy lunch. I want to be the one to witness his milestones. Most of all, I don’t want to screw him up by being with him too little — or too much.
Needless to say, I’m feeling conflicted on many different levels right now. It’s a lovely state of mind…
Assvice appreciated and always welcome.
I am guessing the online class will take lots of time in the beginning but you will get settled into it.
As far as cooking, maybe you could cook every other night and just make enough for leftovers or to freeze for later if you don’t like eating the same thing 2 days in a row. Back when M and I both worked 50 hours a week, that’s what we did.
Just in the year or so that I have read your blog it is obvious to me how much you love the high school. I don’t think I would give that up unless you truly begin to not love it.
You’ll figure it all out eventually.